Kicking cancers ASS!

I'm Kicking cancers ASS! From May of 4.1 to September <0.09 NEGATIVE!!! And that was all me because I still don't have a doctor!!! Still not totally confirmed by a physician but I think cancer is minimizing according to my blood results, exciting news for me and my family...

This is all thanks to my Lord who is my great physician and is helping me fight this with his wonderful medicine MARIJUANA & CANNABIS OIL!!! In little as 2 months this awesome plant has started to cure me...

I'm stool not out of the woods, but I have more faith now than ever... I am very grateful and happy, I believe in God & know he will let me win this fight once again! Thanks to you in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Finding Faith...

Yesterday's mass was beautiful...  I cried with the words the father was preaching.  Jesus Christ never leaves us alone, faith makes things possible.  If things occur that you do not understand its because God knows your strong enough to face them and you will become stronger by knowing your faith will save you.  i am reading a book that says things that happen to us is not to punish us but for a reason to be put to good use, a circumstance or to help others even though we might not know why or what they mean.  Even if its just to touch the soul of one person, God uses you to help others and yourself. 

I don't know why or how I got Cancer, but now I know its to help those who are going through the same as I am, those who need my guidance and advice.  With my advice I can help people not make the same mistakes I did when first diagnosed.  Seek professional treatment with Doctors I know are good providers. 

I was really touched today, I got a FaceBook message by a girl who read my blog seeking information on Thyroid Cancer; she was first diagnosed and her message touched me!  I don't know her and she doesn't know me, but she was first diagnosed last week and came across my blog, and is seeking my advice of what I think she should do; I am honered and belive it is my duty and gift from God to help her.  God once again has given me a sign he is always here!  Faith will bring us to better health. 

P.S. For anyone going through the struggle of this tough battle of fighting cancer here are some great resources you can use which have help me through this tough journey, and I am always here is anyone needs of me :)

American Cancer Society (they are always willing to help and answer any questions) http://www.cancer.org/

Md Anderson Cancer Center (Houston, Texas) www.mdanderson.org 

Rocky Mountain Cancer Centers (Denver, Colorado) http://www.rockymountaincancercenters.com/

Cancer Care http://www.cancercare.org/


These are just a few of the so many resources that are out there to seek information and help regarding cancer. Remember I am here to answer any questions, if I don't know the answer I will help you find it.   God bless & never give up hope!

Last Will and Testament Notarized...

I decided I have to be prepared for whatever comes next, so yesterday I finally got the courage to go and have my Last Will and Testament notarized. I have faith that everything will be fine, but just in case God decides that his will is for me to leave this earth, I can leave in peace knowing that my son’s life is in good hands and that his wellbeing is good taken care of; my son is all I care about right now.

After I had the documents notarized I went straight to my mother-in-law’s house, Lupe Nevarez; she is my son’s grandmother on his father’s side of the family. Lupe seemed disturbed of the idea and so did the entire family, but this is something that needed to be done. I have no idea what will happen. Only God knows what he holds for each and everyone of us, and I just want to be a responsible parent and be able to sleep at night knowing that my son will be taken care.


The family got upset that I am already thinking of a Last Will and Testament, but the way I see it, life is too short and it can end at any minute; at work, on the street, or shopping for groceries. It may not necessarily be Cancer it can be anything at any given time and we need to be prepared to have the lives of the ones we love know what your wishes are if this cycle of life would happen at any given time. Lets face it we are only eternal after death not on earth; our life is just borrowed to us for a little while, until our day comes to say goodbye. I didn’t make a Last Will and Testament because I am giving up or thinking about death, I did it because I want to be prepared if it ever knocks at my door. Faith is one thing I will never give up! Never! I will fight all the way to the end for my son Alexandro…

A Letter from Pat Robertson to me... (Thank you) CBN.com

There is healing in the very presence of the Lord Jesus Christ. Continue to pray and fellowship with Him, and let Him be your strength. Continue to ask Him for a revelation of the Father's will for your life. Continue to soak up the nourishment of the Scriptures, growing in your understanding of the Lord and of His love for you. As you praise Jesus, focus on Who He is and all that He is to you. Hold on to Him and He will abide with you, keep you in perfect peace, and


bring healing to your entire being. We are so glad to learn that you have rededicated your life to the Lord. You can be certain that God is delighted with your decision because His love for you is unwavering and enduring. He is our deeply caring Heavenly Father. If we stray from Him in small ways or large, He joyfully welcomes us back to Him.

You can see the depth of God's love for you in that He lovingly called for you to return to Him. Jesus once told a parable about the shepherd who went out searching for one of his sheep that had gone astray (Luke 15:3-7). Another time Jesus said, "Look! I am standing at the door and knocking. If anyone listens to my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he will eat with me" (Rev. 3:20, ISV).  Also, you can rest in the assurance of God's forgiveness for you.

Whatever you may have done wrong, He will forgive you when you confess it to Him. You can hold to the promise that if "we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9, ESV). Don't let yourself continue to feel guilty over something He has already forgiven. Instead, receive the peace and healing He has for your heart.

Now that you have come back to the Lord, be sure to do all you can to strengthen your walk with Him. As you know, prayer is not only beneficial to your spiritual health, it is essential to it. A sample prayer that may be good at this time is what King David prayed after he had sinned: "Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a right spirit within me" (Psalm 51:10, NLT).


Devote some time especially for prayer every day. Start by worshipping the Lord. Then let Him speak to your heart and reveal to you any unconfessed sins. Listen for His wisdom and guidance for your life. Ask the Lord for whatever needs you may have.

Also, spend time reading the Bible daily. Let the Spirit of God speak to you through His Word. Think about how it applies to your life. God's promises will encourage you and the teachings of our Lord will guide you. A good place to start reading is Luke chapter fifteen, which has the inspiring parables of the lost sheep, lost coin, and the prodigal son.

It is also important for you to gather together frequently with other
Christians. When you meet with other believers, they can encourage you and support you. You will also be able to encourage them by sharing how God brought you back to Him! There will also be opportunities for you to exercise the gifts God has given you to bless others.

Find a place to be with other Christians who are loving, accepting, and
challenging-people who will help you grow. Make sure that the group believes the Bible is God's Word. Ask God to lead you to the right place. You could attend services in a regular church building or in a house church. Make sure, though, that you develop personal relationships with others, such as in a home group or a Bible study.

Yours in Christ,
Pat Robertson

Trying to keep going...

Through the hands of Jesus Christ I will prevail; I know we go through tough times to test our faith and I have faith that God will help me through them. I have heard many don’t tell God how big your problem is, tell your problem how big God is. I pray with all my heart that some day I can be comfortable so I don’t have to struggle to make ends meet every single month and to stop living paycheck by paycheck. I’m not asking to be rich I just want to be able to survive without all the stress of either being able to eat or having to pay a bill. I know God will help me through it because I am a believer!


I have been really depressed lately, but I have been trying to break the tie with going to mass every Sunday and getting closer to God. I have been trying to keep my mind occupied on other things like reading inspirational and self help books to make my mind more at ease. I remember when I was younger I used to talk about like my problems were nothing, just a simple piece of cake. People used to say to me Cristina are you seeing a therapist? Um no why? I’m ok I have dealt with my issues since I was a kid all on my own. I guess now that I am 28 years old all those things that I thought I was dealing with all on my own just got stored up and bottled up some where deep in my soul.

I don’t know if Jesus wants something of me or if he is haunting or tormenting me because every time I try to have resignation and try to move forward to leave my life as normal as I see possible I see him in my dreams or a song I have not heard in years comes on the radio like saying Cristina remember me? I don’t know what else to do! I have prayed for his soul to be in peace, he’s family and I have asked for several masses to be given in his name. I have lit him candles to help him rest in peace, but he is still here somewhere not letting me go! All I can do is to continue to pray for his soul to rest in peace, and to let me live at peace until it is my time to reunite by his side.

My little Alexandro is in counseling now because he can’t deal with the pain of losing two father figures in such a short time; he will not talk to me about his feelings so I guess this was the only way I can try to help him cope. I have tried my best to help him deal with the pain and made myself available to him if he ever needs to talk, but I know he won’t because he see’s I am trying to deal with my own pain. I have a very smart little boy, and I thank God for him everyday, because without him I would have died years ago.