MD Anderson Confirmed...

So I leave to Houston Tx on May 7, 2011.  I have 8 appointment lined up on May 9th and my surgery will be held on May 10 (mexican mothers day :( )  I made reservations at a studio 6, but I hope I can get in with the rotary house because it is so much cheaper.  

To be honest, I am scared, this surgery sounds very complicating.  I just pray that everything turns out for the best, its in Gods hand now.  I should have not of done this but I went on the Internet to see the neck dissection surgeries and they are awful; oh my I am freaking out!  I should have not looked at that!!!  Oh boy...

I will be out there for about 2 weeks; hopefully I can get back before my sons 10th birthday! Poor baby I wanted to through him a birthday party, but I have no money and my house is still destroyed so that is off the list.  Hope you all have a great weekend! God bless.

MD Anderson…

So on Monday I went to my consult with the general surgeon Dr. Kimberly Vanderveen, great person by the way; she explained my entire situation and as it looks it is more complicating than I thought. The type of cancer that I have will never ever really go away, it’s like weeds in your yard you cut them, kill them and eventually sooner or later they come back; obviously that is not what I wanted to hear, but I appreciate her honesty. Dr. Vanderveen gave great detail to everything I needed to know.

It all got to me and I started crying; she said Cristina you’re so young and I want the best treatment for you so you can learn to live with this and survive, I don’t want this cancer to be life threatening to you in the future because if we don’t get this done soon it can spread to the rest of your body, lungs, blood vessels, and bones. With all this information all giving to me at once, I could not take all the emotional distress and tears just rolled down my eyes. The doctor asked me if I had children, I answered yes a 9 year old son, this is when she started crying with me which made me feel she cared what I am going through. The result is the surgery can not be done here in Albuquerque; there are a lot of risks. This surgery requires a lot of detail and a surgeon with experience.

I have been referred to MD Anderson to Dr. Gary Clayman. If I would stay and do the surgery here in Albuquerque I have the risk of losing my life or losing my voice for ever since the lymph nodes which have cancer is surrounding the vocal box and cords. There are also more lymph nodes surrounding over areas of the neck and upper chest. The surgery I will be having is about 10 hours long. I left the office crying and totally scared of what the next few months hold for me.

After the consult I went to my dads I needed comfort from a blood relative; he showed much concern and since we don’t have the financial resources to go on a trip to Houston Texas at this time he decided to go ask the bank for a loan so we can have money for the trip to put gas, food, motel, etc. I will be in the hospital but my father, son, and boyfriend will need a place to stay while I’m there. The doctor thinks I will be at MD Anderson about 1-2 weeks and off of work for about a month. My other worry is that I have not PTO to get paid while I am off work to pay the bills and the mortgage; I am freaking out! I guess I will have to deal with one problem at a time. The good news is that my dad called last night while I was sleeping and told my boyfriend he got a small loan from the bank approved to pay for our trip.

In other news or problems the seller to my house has still not contacted the lawyer; she has until Friday the 22nd or else she will be sued and we will go to court and fight to get the insurance money she kept in order to fix my home. So many things to deal with at once I still don’t know how I can still keep a smile on my face  LOL LOL LOL. All I know God is with me and will help me get out of all these issues. Hopefully after this one he will know I have a lot of faith in him so he can stop testing it.  I ask all of you to please pray for my family and me in these hurtful times. Thank you in advance for you prayers.

Houston Texas here I come!!! I have never been to Houston at least I will see the convention center where my idol Selena Quintanilla used to sing  even in the bad of circumstances I always try to find a good out of it!

Selena Quintanilla RIP + (1971-1995) +

Was murdered on March 31, 1995

PS. I forgot to mention Alexandro lost another tooth while he was sleeping last night so this time he might only get $1, times are bad right now LOL hope he doesn't get too upset!  Now he decided to lose teeth!!  We both have an orthodontist apt this evening so the orthodontist will be pleased those teeth he lost are no longer in the way! LOL

Update on this past Palm sunday weekend...

Oh my goodness today is my consult with the surgeon and I am almost positive my surgery will be this week. I checked her schedule and she has tomorrow and Friday open! I know it had to come, but now that is has, I am very nervous. My dad called yesterday and said he dreamt I was healthy and thin like I used to be before; I wish that was the case. He said maybe my dream means you are going to get well. I sure hope that is true.

So in other news, Alexandro lost a tooth on Friday; he was so excited about getting money from the tooth fairy. Usually years back when he lost a tooth the tooth fairy would give him $5 a tooth, now the tooth fairy is broke so she only gave him $2 LOL LOL LOL. So he put his tooth under the pillow on Friday and on Saturday he comes into my room saying mom the tooth fairy didn’t give me no money; (*the tooth fairy had forgotten about it ooppss), oh no babe maybe she is on vacation I told him. LOL LOL LOL. Oh I guess that is it mom; lets see if she comes tonight. So when he fell asleep my BF went in to get the tooth and put the $2. Sunday morning he comes in and says mom the tooth fairy is back from vacation she gave me $2 dollars; I think the molars are only $2 because for canines she always would give me $5, I need to lose a canines so I can get more money mommy. LOL LOL LOL funny!!!

On Saturday I was supposed to go to a birthday party, but I stayed in bed all day long; I was not feeling good at all, my entire body was hurting. I was so excited for the weekend to arrive and then the illness hit me; it is so weird like some days I can be ok and others I can’t even move. Literally I feel like a woman of 80 years old!!! It is so frustrating for our minds to feel so young and our body to feel older than it is. I just hope it gets better after the surgery. Well that is it for today folks, have a wonderful week.

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Status of life occurrences...

So life has not been so easy lately. The seller whom I did my real estate contract to purchase my home kept all of the monies from the insurance and my home has not been fixed from the flood that the frozen pipes caused back on February 2nd occurred. With all I am dealing with emotionally and physically with my cancer it has caused more stress on my life. I had to hire an attorney which I had never ever in my life had to do.

I don’t understand how people can be so fake and so cruel. I am living in a home that is not livable, getting ready to have an important surgery due to my cancer and knowing all these issues she still didn’t care and did all this to me. I guess it’s hard to believe there are people so hurtful in this world when I myself would never do that to anyone especial not to anyone in need.

God will do justice on her and with time she will pay for her do’s, until then lets just hope that my attorney can make her pay some do’s here on earth for now. I don’t like to fight, but I never give up! I will fight till the end for justice and to survive.

I wanted to do a little party for Alexandro for his 10th birthday in May at the house, but with all this going on I guess it will not be possible. At times I don’t even know what to feel if to choose life or death, then I wake up and think about my little Alex, he needs me. A lot of things have happened in such a little time and I still don’t know how to cope with so many problems God tests me with. I still miss Chuy a lot and think about him every single day. It may seem sad, but I have actually given up on love, I will never love again. I have a BF, but I will never be able to love him with the strength and passion that I still love Chuy with.

So on Monday 18th finally my consult with the surgeon; I am almost sure my surgery will be on the Friday 22nd. The 19th is open too, but its @ Kaseman the other hospital is where I had my other surgery’s and didn’t turn out to well, so I want to have it @ the main Presbyterian hospital were I work at. Let’s see what she says on Monday. I am kind of nervous, if you are a previous reader as you know I died in 2005 after a surgery I had to remove a brain tumor! Life is always in God’s hands and he decides whether to keep us here to continue learning or take us to rest in peace! Thanks for reading; I needed to VENT a little!!! God bless and have a wonderful day.

Review: A CONVERSATION WITH GOD: IF YOU COULD ASK GOD ANYTHING WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Author: Alton Gansky

$10.54 (Amazon price)
Paperback: 320 pages

Publishing Details:
Publisher: Nelson, Thomas Incorporated
Date: March 15, 2011
ISBN13: 9780785231653
ISBN: 078523165X
BINC: 3212119

Language: English

This book helps you better understand God; it’s like he is really talking to you and explaining to you all your doubts. Why things are or were before, why he changed from a fierce God from the Old Testament to a gentler God in the New Testament. It is amazing what you will learn from reading this book; they’re things that are in the bible which were written and were told to us way before men say they discovered it; just like when they said Christopher Columbus discovered that the world was round, it was written in the bible way before time. I don’t want to spoil the book for you so I won’t give out too much, but it’s an awesome book. You will learn so much from reading this book, it will help you ease your mind and gain more trust in what you believe or if you don’t believe you probably will start believing. It was a great reading experience and I learned a lot.



In Gods Hands...

Life is difficult but sweet…

I want to imagine what heaven is like, does it have all the wonderful things we have here like the smell of rainfall and the colors of the rainbows after a storm?

The bible says that in heaven there is no marriage; I always had the question on the back of my mind if my mother was married to her lost husband before my father then when she passes who would she be with, but in heaven that is not an issue, we all become angels of the lord and marriage is not an issue.

Like it says in Matthew 22:28: In the resurrection, therefore, of the seven, whose wife will she be? For they all had her.” Matthew 22:29: But Jesus answered them, "You are wrong, because you know neither the Scriptures nor the power of God. Matthew 22:30: For in the resurrection they neither marry nor are given in marriage, but are like angels in heaven.

I have gotten closer to the words of our lord; when ever I start to worry about my illness, bills, etc. I read my bible and my worries get dimmer to the back of my mind. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but I do not worry anymore because I know God is always watching over me and I accept whatever his will might be. I know that we are not mortal and that only our soul is eternal, all I ask is that my son be taken care of in the event I can not do it myself. That is all I ask for. I am in Gods hands.

Feeling worse latley...

So last week I had took my nuclear med on 3/8 had nuclear scan on 3/10 and had ultrasound on 3/11. I have been feeling more like crap lately; I have severe body aches and severe headaches. I wake up in the middle of the night with pain! This morning I called to Dr. Galagan’s office to see if they can check if the results have come in; at this point I am desperate because I feel awful… This morning I was going to call into work but I have no PTO and I really really need my hours, and I also realized that two other girls were going to be out today, so I decided to pucker up, get my achy body up, and come in to work.

After I have a little breakfast I am planning on taking some pain meds maybe that will help me get through the day. I faxed Dr. Galagan’s office short term disability paperwork last week so if I need to be off for pain or treatment I can get paid but he has not faxed the paperwork back to me :(. My face looks awful I am getting spots and pimples; I guess it could be from stress but my face has never been like this before!

I have been on the low iodine diet for 2 weeks now; I hate it, but what else can I do. I just want the pain to go away, I truly feel awful, the headaches are unpredictable and so painful. I have on right now, I so want to go home! I thank all of you who are praying for me and also for all of your support. Have a great week and God bless you…

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REVIEW: SAME KIND OF DIFFERENT AS ME

Authors:
Ron Hall
Denver Moore
Lynn Vincent

$14.95 (Amazon price)

Paperback: 237 pages

Publisher: Thomas Nelson (2006)

Language: English

ISBN: 0849900417


I received a free copy from “BookSneeze” This book is about a man named Denver who is raised under a slavery plantation in Louisiana in 1960’s; he escapes onto a train. He remains homeless for about eight years in Dallas, Texas. He is no longer a slave; he felt hopeless until he finds faith in God; he meets a faithful woman who discovers she has cancer. Facing death she calls to her husband to rescue Denver. Denver will be lost, but will be saved as well. Only reading the book you can find out the outcome of these three. This book has a very emotional story to tell dealing with pain, love, hardships, and the faith it brings in heaven. It’s an awesome story to read.