Surgery Day... MD Anderson

I'm on my way to the hospital, I have a pet scan at 7am and my surgery is scheduled for 10:30am. I just want to take this opportunity to thank all of my friends and family members who have been supporting me through this tough journey! I want all of you to know that I LOVE & appreciate you very much! I also want my son Alexandro to know that he is the most important person in my life and that I love him with all my heart and I thank God everyday for giving me the gift of being his mother. I LOVE YOU BABE (MI FLACO) ;)

Thanks again to everyone and hope to see u very soon!

Oh and FELIZ DIA DE LAS MADRES (today is mothers Day in Mexico)

Over the weekend…

So how was everybody’s weekend? Mine was ok, can’t complain, well actually I do have a few things to complain about; not about my weekend, but of things that occurred during the weekend. On Saturday, USA was eliminated from the World Cup 2010 by GHA 2-1; it was a major disappointment for me.

Then I said well at least I still have my hopes put on my Mexico; maybe Mexico will win the World Cup 2010! Wrong again; on Sunday afternoon, Mexico was eliminated by Argentina 3-1, I actually got drunk on “Coronas”, and cried for a while. The passion of soccer for us Mexicans is unexplainable; the pain of always losing hurts our hearts deeply! I mean come on, I will be 28 years old on July 10th and I have never seen Mexico make it to the finals, it is so hurtful as well as disappointing!!!! Ahhhhuuuu why can’t we just win once?

I’m also very sad about what happened on Saturday.
On Saturday, June 26, 2010 Mexican singer Sergio Vega AKA (El Shaka) was murdered after a car chase by an assassination gang in Sinaloa near the hills of Barobampo, Mexico. His partner survived the firing, but sadly he lost his life.

This is a great loss for the Mexican music industry as well as the field of music in general. The murder took place right before the time when Sergio Vega was to join his crew for an upcoming musical tour. Lately Musicians who sing about Mexico’s Drug wars have often become targets of warring drug gangs, and at least seven have been killed in the past three years.

El Shaka was born on September 12, 1969 in Ciudad Obregon in the state of Sonora Mexico. Sergio Vega El Shaka belonged to a family which had a lot of background in music.

The following are just a few of his so many songs:

• Quien es usted

• Necesito Dueña

• Te queiro

• Me gusta estar contigo

• Te amo mucho

He will be missed dearly! *R.I.P Sergio Vega 1969-2010*

In other news, I would like to introduce you to the newest member of our family “Gris”; she is 7 weeks old, and we just got her yesterday! She is already a spoiled little brat. I bought her a little house for her to sleep in and she doesn’t want to stay in it; she gets out and jumps onto my bed. Gris doesn’t mow if she’s on the bed, but she mows as soon as you get her off; SPOILED!!!! Now we have 2 dogs and 1 cat. LOL

Nothing much else to say except that today I went to work, church, and home! Tomorrow again work, and to the gynecologist appointment; oh dear!!! Wish me lots of luck…I’ll let you know how it went.

Read ya later Earthlings :) Have a great night!

Finally Friday…

So today is finally Friday! YAY Thank goodness; this was one of the longest weeks of my life, maybe because I have not been feeling so great. I still feel like I have a fever and my stomach doesn’t feel that 100% yet! At least I get to rest this weekend, as soon as I got home I took a nap! I have felt so exhausted lately, sometimes I fear my “Cancer” is back and that is why I feel the way I do; I totally freak out!

 

In other frustrations my college is totally driving me nuts, first they told me I would not be able to go to this summer term because I owe money back because I got my Pell grant prematurely or something like that, and even though they stated I was not going to be able to start classes they registered me anyway. Really! Are you Serious! Well I didn’t know, so I have not been doing homework; then I decided to start on homework and they tell me that if I want to continue to have access to class, I need to pay what I am short on no later than June 29th. Ok so I e-mailed them to withdrawal me from the course, and now they want to charge me to withdrawal! What? Can you talk about confusion? I am totally stressing over these! Fawk… I sent another email because I can never get them on the phone; let see if there is a response when I log into my e-mail tonight.

 

Ok well changing the subject, what are you gonna do this weekend? I am going to rest, rest, and rest some more! Catch up on some movies on the Internet, um yeah I see bootlegged movies on the Internet LOL, I do save the ones I truly want to see for the big screen; even then, I go to the early bird viewing because lets face it now in days going to the movies is so darn expensive, right? Imagine there are 3 of us, $10 each ticket that is $30 bucks for 1 movie; that is what I paid for the concert tickets for August 1st! Crazy! I’d rather get up earlier and just pay ½ price of $5.

 

On my way home my son called that his nino/uncle would be dropping him off later tonight because they were at his cousin’s baseball game! SWEET… I came straight home and took a nap; I slept until he got here, then we ate dinner, talked for a bit, and went to bed. Did I mention it is so awesome it is finally Friday? LOL Have a good weekend everyone!

**I would also like to take the time to welcome my new followers, hope we can become good buddies**

Father’s Day…

How was your Fathers Day? Mine was totally awesome! Alejandro, Alex and I had so much fun at the zoo. We got there early to walk around the zoo before the concert started. We decided to take our own cooler filled with drinks and food; it saved us a lot of money that is for sure, and we had a great time while saving some mula!

Beatriz Adriana was amazing; it was so cool to see a person I have idolized since I was a little girl.  I sang along with every song; I even danced in the grass with my little Alex.

This outing helped us do something together as a family, and it helped me realize how sweet my Alejandro is! He is a sweet guy…

I called my dad and my brother to wish them a lovely Fathers Day.  I invited my dad to the concert, but he had his own plans with his lady which truly doesn’t surprise me! That is dad for you; in his own little world, in Luis town. It’s all good though, whatever makes him happy, and floats his boat; I did my part.

The weather was so very crazy, all day long it was hot; I even got sun burn on my ears to prove it, and yes I had sunscreen on. Right when Beatriz Adriana came out, the best part of the concert in which we were all waiting all day for, a wind storm began. Then on top of that it started raining. Oh well! I sure didn’t care; nothing was going to get me away from that concert.

When we got home we ate the left over pizza from the night before, relaxed in front of the television, and watched a reality show called “Desafio”. After that I have no idea, I don’t even remember at what time I dosed off. The weekend was too short, I guess that’s the way it feels when you’re having fun! From a close of eyes it would soon be Monday once again and off to work! One down and 4 more to go.

It would be totally awesome if I would win the lottery, and I no longer had to work; wouldn’t that just be so great? Yes, it would!!! I guess I can keep on dreaming, hey you never know it can happen. =P For now I am thankful God provides me with good health and employment :) Hope you have an excellent week, soon the weekend will arrive once again! God bless.

I don't know how or when but I fall in love.

In 1996 the love of my life came into my life to cause tremendous confusion and emotions...

That love is named Jesus Manuel Nevarez Cruz; I was 14 and he was 23.

I didn't know what love was.

Back in the day the only thing I knew was that every time I saw him or heard his voice I felt butterflies in my stomach just of the excitement...

My Chuy was my first love...

later came the first kiss, which was one of the best days of my life...
Years later came our first time which our bodies became one.
Two years later came our son Alexandro.

Alexandro was our most precious satisfaction and our greatest happiness.
Later came arguments and we separated
Even apart we never stopped loving each other.

I had boyfriends after, but I never felt the butterflies.
I was never able to be happy because I always kept the wish on the back of my mind that all I wanted was to be with my Chuy...

On September 2009 we saw each other once more; I was able to taste the flavor of his mouth and the tenderness of his hugs. We made so many plans and goals for us to be happy again; we planed to be a family once more and give our son a true family.

Unfortunately that's what a stayed as just plans that will no longer become true! It will stay as a beautiful dream that I must never be able to reach. My Chuy died one month later and with him my heart dies too. Tuesday, October 13, 2009 I died with him because that is what I feel I living here with a dead heart. Seeing my son cry for his daddy is the most unbearable thing I can go through; he asks God why? It drives me crazy, I cant see my son suffer this way, and I feel so alone... Nobody understands, the only people who understand are those who feel the same pain we are going through.

At times I think about continue on living my life like everyone says I should, but deep down in my soul I feel guilt that I am still on this earth and he is no longer here. How can I be living my life like nothing happened if the other half of my soul is no longer here? how?

How can I make someone happy if I am so tore up on the inside and dying of pain? No one understands and some times I feel so alone.

I need you and you're no longer here...

Now that you are no longer here, I need you more than ever. I need the hugs and kisses you used provided and gave me with all your love. With everyday, our love would grow like velocity. Remember when I used to wake you up in the middle of the night just to hear your voice? To wake up and know I had you was the most incredible feeling because you used to give meaning to my life. When I was cold you were my coat, you made me feel loved and the most special woman on earth, you melted the ice with the tact of your lips; you made me reach towards the stars. I was forever the slave of you eyes; to look deep in to them was all I needed to feel comfort.

If you were here with me now, I would need nothing more. This is why I say and write it; the best thing that has happend in my life was meeting you and making you part of of it; you gave me the most precious gift which is the blessing of motherhood. You forever left a piece of you with me; a foto of you which I see everyday, and that is our son Alexandro. Everyday he looks more like you. Babe my beloved Chuy I loved you yesterday, I love you now, and I will love you forever, and it will always be that way. I miss you everyday of my life and that will continue being that way until we are together again.