FRUSTRATED With a capital F

On August 26, 2013 I was scheduled to see Dr. Edwards. I was really nervous to see a new doctor; the appointment lasted a little over an hour. It seemed like he really knows his stuff and my anxiety calmed down a little after talking to him. Dr. Edwards mentioned he could place me on a hormone to help control my low calcium and high thyroid levels; he said, he needed to look at my file with more detail and that he would get back to me on Tuesday; said that if I didn’t hear from him by that day to call his office on Wednesday. I left with a spark of hope that he was the one; the one that would help me through this torment I have been going through in order to get my cancer treatments going.

August 27, 2013 I waited for a call and nothing.

August 28, 2013 I called the office just like Dr. Edwards had suggested, I was told he was not in the office and they took a message. Later that morning Dr. Edwards called; he declined to be my doctor, he told me my case was too complicating and that I would have to continue seeing Dr. Galagan. He said he consulted with Dr. Galagan and that they both agreed this would be the best way to get treated. (Treated??? What treatment??? I haven’t even started on a treatment!!!!) Dr. Edwards said Dr. Galagan informed him that he had mentioned to me the same hormone he suggested of which he did NOT!!!! (Bullshit lies) Also that he told him I had missed an appointment with him, which is not true either; they never called me to schedule it and never returned my calls when I would call them.

I have no idea why he would make (this SHIT) up, but it is what it is I guess!!!!! I informed him I am having a hard time with Dr. Galagan’s office calling me back or helping me that this was the reason I paid him my New Patient COPAY and decided to see him and make him my doctor; he didn’t seem to care of what I had to say, he just told me to call their office and harass them to make me an appointment. I called Dr. Galagan’s office; I complained I needed to be seen soon, that they never called to make me my follow up appointment after my biopsy. After yelling and arguing with them I got in on a cancellation they had for September 3, 2013.

September 3, 2013 so today was the day I was supposed to see Dr. Galagan; I came into work and had a missed call on my cell then I logged into my computer and I had an email on MyChart and there was a notice my appointment for TODAY had been cancelled. I went back to the cellphone voicemail and it was to inform me my appointment was cancelled due to Dr. Galagan calling in for the entire week. WOW what news!!! This has been going on for the past 6 months!!!!! So it’s Tuesday September 3, 2013 and I still don’t have an appointment or a doctor that is willing to help me out!!!!!

Tomorrow September 4, 2013 I have a healing scheduled for several hours with two Curandera healers; maybe with the help of my Lord they can help me out because it seems like the doors are closing in on me and these doctors don’t want to help me out!!!!

I am starting to lose control of myself and my feelings…

It feels like there are just too many obstacles in my way.

One thing they cannot take away from me is my FAITH!!!!

The Cancer Horror Continues…

On July 2, 2013 my doctor’s appointment was full of disappointment, Cancer levels showed once more in my blood results, but a biopsy would be needed to confirm that cancer had come back.  All that was going through my mind at that moment was “again” please Lord not again!  My biopsy ultrasound was scheduled to be done on July 23, 2013, I had some more blood work done and now all I could do is wait and pray the blood results were off or something was wrong with the results, but in back of my mind I knew it was true.

 

July 23, 2013 I took the day off from work to have my biopsy, I showed up at radiology and to my surprise the girl at the check in counter tells me that my biopsy has been cancelled and to go to the doctor’s office in the next building.  I was worried that the recent blood work I had done showed up horribly wrong and for some reason the biopsy was not able to be done, but that was not it at all; the doctor didn't show up for my procedure.  I was rescheduled for in 2 more weeks.  The waiting continues…

 

August 6, 2013 took the day off from work to get biopsy done; those procedures are painful and I was not going to show up to work after and be uncomfortable for all those hours.  I showed up wishing the doctor would show up and to get this terrible waiting process out of the way.  I check in, everything seems to be as planned and on time.  I go into the procedure room and half the biopsy has been completed; the doctor takes a few slides and tells me to hang in tight that he’s going to go check on the results of the slide and if it’s positive for Cancer he won’t continue pocking me with those dreadful needles.  He leaves; I cry and am full of anxiety while my son Alexandro is out in the lobby waiting, my fiancé Alejandro holds me tight and tells me everything is going to be alright.  I don’t know what is coming; its seemed like he was gone for hours but it was only in my imagination.  He comes back and states that the lymph node is negative and we will continue taking more slides.   He leaves and the waiting continues.  When he comes back it’s confirmed; cancer cells have been found and next step is treatment.  He wants to refer me to surgery.  I will not do it again.   I have had surgery 5 times and nothing is working.  Have not been cancer free for more than 2 years, something else needs to be done and surgery is not the first on my list.

 

Upcoming appointment is on August 12, 2013 to consult with a physician to get qualified for medical Marijuana through the state of NM and begin with "The Cannabis Treatment" to cure this CANCER!  I’m fed up with these doctors who don’t help get rid of it, I am done with man-made medicines, radiations, and surgeries!  May the Lord be with me and guide me to good health in this new treatment journey.  Please keep me in your prayers and I will keep in touch with treatment updates and outcomes. 

On August 28, 2013 I will be seeing my NEW doctor, Dr. Edwards; after all the horrible experiences, I'm switching to a different Endocrinology practice. Sending good vibes my way is greatly appreciated. 

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