Sadly my son has started therapy; I can no longer do it on my own to help him cope with the loss of two father figures plus everything else his seen through my sickness. He lost his biological father in October of 2009, and also Cesar another figure he once called dad in June 2010. He has depressed anxiety according to his therapist; he has now been to 2 sessions, his third one will be in September. I just hope we can deal with this before he gets older and gets to the point where I am now.
My poor baby has seen his parents go through a lot, and it is now affecting him in a way I didn’t notice before; he is not the kid I once knew, I too am not the same Cristina I remember. First it was because of my brain tumor in 2005, second dealing with my cancer in 2008 till this day still fighting it. Third the passing of Chuy his father in October 2009, and Fourth the passing of Cesar June 2010, plus my depression and anxiety as well. This is a lot to deal with for a 9 year old.
About 2 weeks ago he was crying, I went up to him to ask what was wrong; he said he prays to God to make him a better person, but that it never works! I was heart broken to hear those words come out of his mouth because I know he is an awesome kid. I said babe you are the greatest person I know, you have stood by my side through all my sickness and would not leave the hospital under any condition, you don’t do drugs, smoke, or in gangs; babe you are an awesome person. It hurts me deeply that he thinks these things have happened to him because he says he is a bad person. :(
To my readers I just ask that you send your good vibes our way and to pray for us; this will help our life a little easier to cope. Have a blessed day and God bless you!
